I am deleting my previous entry and informing you all that I feel better by now. Thank for your help. I decided to take a vacation, so no drawing, no videos for the next few weeks.

So far it's been one day and it's been quite hard, since the electricity ran out for over 8 hours......

I am sorry for acting so emo and I know many have lost their patience with me and qualify me as hopeless, I don't blame them. I'm sorry, I hate that behaviour myself...

No more drawing for now, hopefully it'll remind me that can be fun... or it won't and yet again I'll be forced to pursue another direction in my life... We shall see...